Day 25: There's Never Any Time!!!

I yell that in my best Jessie Spano voice.

No second job tonight = plenty of time for shopping, meal prep, and Piyo.

+ random neighborhood kids coming to play = getting them to leave

+ church function with my sister and niece that runs a little longer than expected

+ a new Piyo workout that's 48 MINUTES

...do healthy people just say no to life? Are their priorities ONLY fitness?

That'll be interesting to figure out.

Tonight I chose Jesus. And I'm glad I did...because I'm going to need his help getting down the stairs.

Day 24: Ugly Banana Pancakes

And I use the term, "Banana Pancakes" loosely.

It's a protein pancake that I use for one of my meals. The first couple we made in the frying pan were a disaster, so we baked the rest.

Did I throw the ugly pancakes away? Heck no, techno! That's expensive healthy food that I put my heart into!!!

I had training in Salt Lake City tonight. It was a nice break for my feet, but I was surrounded by candy!!!

Bowls of beautiful candy - calling my name. Luring me in with their seductive packaging.

I pulled a Joseph (biblical reference) and RAN AWAY!!!

IN THE MIDDLE OF TRAINING!!!

TO MY CAR!!!

Where my only friend, Ugly Banana Pancake, was waiting for me. Like a summer breeze that kisses your face. Ugly Banana Pancake.

I ate my deliciously unasthetic meal, drank at least 64 oz of water in less than 3 hours, and made the class laugh with inappropriate questions. :)

Mahalo Ugly Banana Pancake - together we conquered today.

Day 23: I've Stopped My Crying...

for today... ;)

I'm sitting on the couch in the living room as my family eats ice cream together.

Hooray for healthy living!!!

*bitter silence*

I know that once my body gets used to my new schedule - trying to be healthy will seem less daunting.

It just seems harder than it should right now. And I feel fatter too.

Luckily, the old men at the Liquor Store (my second job) like me. And that's what's getting me thru tonight...

Day 22: Ouch!

My feet did a little better today at my second job.

I'm hoping Piyo can stretch them out for me.

I'm trying not to take ibuprofen because I want to see how my body is handling things...without being numb.

Does that make sense?

Does ANY of this make sense?!

WHY IS BEING HEALTHY SO PAINFUL AND HARD?!

*blah*

I'd better get to my Piyo...ha!

Day 21: RESULTS WEEK 3

This last week was pretty sketchy when it came to meal plans.

I walked a lot (all over Austin and the airports) - but I skipped a few meals. When I skip meals - I'm worried that my body is eating my lean muscle - instead of my fat...which is just rude if you ask me.

Here's what happened:

WEIGHT:  LOST             -3.9 lbs. 

 ARMS:  LOST                 -0.25"

LEGS:  LOST                   -5"

WAIST:  LOST                -1"

BUST:  N/A                      0"             

HIPS:  GAINED             +0.5"

Again - I'm trying my hardest to be consistent with my measurements...but I'm not upset by this.

I AM sore...but I'll keep trucking!!! :) 

 

Day 20: Saturday Night Fever

I've got to buckle down this week and get into a rhythm with my new job.

9 hours on my feet today. My feet are scuh-ream-ing!!!

I'm hoping that Piyo will help stretch me out and keep strengthening me as well.

I feel like I'm fatter...but stronger. Maybe I'm building more muscle...and that muscle is pushing my fat out...of my body?

Hahaha...I wish I could draw on my blog. Then you could see a horrible depiction of what I'm talking about.

Random moment today: My coworkers at my new job were talking about tattoos. They asked if I could draw. I replied without hesitating,

"No. Well...maybe for a weird children's     book. Did you want me to draw you a dinosaur?"

*weirdest looks ever...that can go in my children's book*

Hahahaha...I'm still here. No matter how many inches I lose!!!

Day 19: It Happened...

I was explaining my life today to one of my coworkers and these exact words came out of my mouth:

"I'm tired and sore. And I'm a little stressed - but I know that if I do my Piyo it'll make me feel better".

WHO IS THIS?!

WHO AM I?!

*ugly cry*

Two nights ago - I did not - I repeat DID NOT - want to do my Piyo. 

My sister wasn't going to have that. She fought through my horrible attitude - set up our yoga mats - and we completed the workout.

It hurt - and I may have started out a bit lazy - but by the middle and end - I WAS ROCKING IT (in a modify-the-modified sort of way).

I was the Brown Sugar Demon - but was cured by exercise!!!

It's amazing how people really are helping me out. My feet are hurting (I gotta get used to retail again) and I asked The Boys to grab water for me. Jonny looked at me and said, 

"But...I thought you were walking downstairs with us now..."

And I fought through my attitude to take the baby steps I started this month. 

It's true - I'm my worst enemy sometimes.

I've got to fight through my attitude to be successful.

God bless all the people who will fight with me!!! <3

Day 18: FAIL :(

I started my 2nd job today - right after the first.

Then headed to SLC airport to find my bags...no luck.

Got back in time to post this with no Piyo done. :(

I stuck to my meals the best I could...and I got another PR on my steps...but I really just want my luggage and sleep.

Day 17: The Struggle is REAL...

I thought I had it all figured out - but the hiccups in my travel plans have thrown me for a loop.

I'm tired.

I'm hungry.

I'm stressed out.

I'm trying not to eat everything in the house...but it's SO HARD.

The only solution is to...nap.

It'll stop me from eating needlessly - and I'll get a little bit more rest that I missed out on last night.

Here's what I hope happens tonight:

• I don't die during Piyo
• My luggage makes it to SLC
• Nothing is missing from my luggage
• I meet a ginger that's bearded and he realizes I'm all he needs in his life...and he's not gay

I'll start with the nap...ha!

Day 16: Stuck & Hungry

Today I started my travels back to Utah.

The travel gods were NOT on my side today - and now I'm looking for comfortable places to sleep in the baggage claim of the Denver Airport.

Tired and hungry (last meal was in Texas at 3:00 pm) - I wanted to count some wins today:

• Totally ROCKED my workout this morning - even though I was tired and stressed because I still needed to pack
• I thought I was going to die a few times when trying to make my flight connections - but I powered through and got to my gates on time
• I got a PR on my steps count!!!
• I actually had enough money in my account to buy a ticket home
• I may be sleeping in the baggage claim tonight - but it's just another conversation I can have with a random person in the future
• I smiled at every person that I could. That's how great I am feeling...and how creepy I can be ;)

I was supposed to fly into Idaho Falls tonight - stay with my awesome cousins - and then take a shuttle to Ogden...BUT the flight was cancelled due to fog.

My cool cousin was at the airport waiting for me with a bag of brown sugar - so I would know he was waiting for ME <3

AND - since my baggage is all over the place - United gave me a little bag with toiletries to help tie me over to tomorrow morning :)

Being healthy tomorrow is going to be a challenge - so I'll find a restroom here and pamper myself before heading to bed. :)

Day 15: BEAST MODE

So, I've already touched on the fact that I have to modify-the-modified when it comes to working out.

I feel like I'm getting stronger though - and I sometimes wonder if it's just me being crazy. It's possibly me just being super excited that I'm trying.

When you do Piyo - they always encourage you to at least try the moves in full force (I can't think of the right terms right now) and then modify when you need.

Today - I tried to hold a pose called Beast Mode. It's where you're on all fours - but you bring up your knees and use the strength of your arms and legs to keep balance.

AND I DID IT!!!

I HELD BEAST MODE!!!

I HELD BEAST MODE FOR LIKE - ONE SECOND - BUT I HELD BEAST MODE!!!

I was so pumped! I'm STILL so pumped!!!

Then something weird happened...I started crying.

*dumbfounded break*

I was so confused.

I'm pumped up because I did something AWESOME - and I'm crying?!

Am I in pain? No.

Am I embarrassed? No.

I had no idea that Beast Mode makes people cry....ha!

I didn't realize how long it's been since I've really tried to do something hard...to do something I feel like I fail at.

And even though it was only for A second (or maybe 2? ha!) - I wasn't failing.

Those were possibly tears of relief...that I'm not a failure. Tears of anxiety...that it's going to get harder. Tears of gratitude...that I can change.

And I will change - 1 second at a time. :)

Day 14: RESULTS WEEK 2

I GAINED WEIGHT!!! 

*ugly cry*

I'd hate to blame it on traveling - so I'll blame it on myself. I've to got keep it together!!!

WEIGHT:  GAINED     + 000.6 lbs...hahaha

 ARMS:  LOST               -1"

LEGS:  GAINED           +2.5" (BUT - I'm having a hard time measuring these bad boys consistently, so I think I've figured out a way this week...we'll see. HA!)

WAIST:  LOST              -1.5"

BUST:  LOST              -1.25"

HIPS:  LOST               -1"

WAHOO!!! 

It makes me feel like quoting The New Kids on the Block:

"Step by step...ooo babaaaaaaaaaaay. Gonna get to you giiiiiiiiiiiirl."

hahaha - Time for more Piyo!!! 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 13: Don't Panic...

Buuuut....I'm in downtown Austin.

And when you're in downtown Austin...you go out to eat.

Let's start at the beginning of my day though!!!

>>I rocked my hardest Piyo workout.
>>I stuck to my meal plan.
>>We've walked SO much...we really have!

People say you should have a "Free Day".

I didn't want to have a "Free Day" because I didn't want to take advantage of it...

SO - I'm taking a "Free Night" and making sure I:

>>Don't overeat
>>Drink water
>>Dance ♡♡♡

I'm nervous - excited - worried - confident I won't fall too far from the health bandwagon :)

Aaaahhhhh!!! Here we go!!!

Day 12: BREAK!!!

I know this will sound counteractive - but just hear me out.

Among the 6 million thoughts going through my brain - these were the most prominent.

Should I workout right after I finish - shower - and then have the night free?

Should I take a nap - kick it - and then workout before I shower and go to bed?

Yesterday - with all the traveling and catching up -  I didn't get to my workout until SUPER late.

AND - I had to YouTube it again. It was kind of awkward because I couldn't SEE the Piyo workout - I could only HEAR it. So, I was stuck watching a shirtless man do the workout and  I felt awkward when he asked me if his form was okay. 

Yes? I mean, he was buff...I just felt like maybe we should get to know each other better - before working out together, shirtless. Wait - I was supposed to leave my shirt on? 

I was just following what he did on the video!!! ;)

ANYWAYS - as I was pondering this life changing decision - the heavens opened and my mind was enlightened.

REST DAY!!!

PRAISE JESUS, IT'S REST DAY!!!

I'm almost embarrassed at how happy I am about this. I can't stop smiling. Can you feel me smiling as I type this? hahaha - YYYEEESSSUUUH!!!!

This is where it may be counteractive. I should probably be sad that I don't get to workout today. In all reality - I still can.

But, I'm feeling gross still (thanks womanhood!) and I'm still killing it with my meal plan and workouts.

I don't feel guilty for taking a REST DAY - because I'm EARNING it!!!

Maybe on Day 586 - I'll push through that REST DAY and workout. 

Maybe on Day 586 - I'll keep my shirt on too ;)

Day 11: Adventures in Austin

What better way to celebrate 10 days of health - than a trip to see my bestie in Texas? :)

Having flight benefits (mahalo Cuzin Lara!) - being single - having no children - and being able to work remotely come in handy for me quite a bit.

And I'm feeling good.

I've lost 6 lbs - I've been sticking to my workout plan - I've been eating healthy.

I packed my food in my CARRY ON luggage. I even showed the salad dressing to the security guard for clearance.

I'M. HEALTHY.

BUT, I have to use a seat belt extender to make my seat belt fit. :(

AND, I have to put the armrest up to fit in my seat. :(

I'm healthy? :(

*sigh*

Well, I'm TRYING to be healthy.

Today I felt silly about it...like - 6 pounds was dumb to be proud of. Like - no one believes I'm eating healthy. Like  - I'll NEVER fit in an airplane.

Luckily, the woman on my flight to Denver was kind. She tried to sell me jewelry - but she didn't mind having the arm rest up. We laughed and talked the entire flight. I even told her how frustrated I was with my healthy life changes and the airplane ride. She was super encouraging and we have plans to bond at the new Trader Joe's opening in Utah soon. :)

I don't like feeling self conscious or sad. I'm sure I could use those feelings to help drive my efforts. Yet, I don't think that would be the most effective path for me. I want to focus on the positive feelings I experience...things that make me happy. 

What was my happy today then?

• New friends on flights
• Rocking my reports in between flights 
• Eating my healthy snacks
• Walking around the airports and NOT dying
• STAYING on my meal plan
• Seeing my best friend
• Shopping for my meal plan
• Packing my yoga mat :)

It'll take time to fit into seat belts and airplanes. I have to remember that.

Until then - I'll keep trying and stay happy.

Day 10: Medals in Meal Planning

I love food. 

I've always said that. 

FOOD + BROWN SUGAR = TRUE LOVE FOREVER

Being on a meal plan destroys that...or does it?

In the past - with all my meal plans - I go for the GOLD. Everything they tell me to eat - I put it in my lunchbox. 

Cauliflower? CHOPPED!

Lentils? COOKED & DRAINED!

Sardines? wait - WHAT?! 

This is the first time that I've actually made my own meal plans - using the food I'm allowed. But, instead of going for the GOLD - I've taken a step back and realized that there are different shades of GOLD. Not 50 (eh? EH?) - but shades that still give me the GOLD!

I may not be eating sardines (#1 meat at the top of my list...*gag*) - but my veggie burger is listed.

My chopped salad may not be at the top of the list - but Kale is and guess what - I got some kale in my salad!

It's with all these little tweaks that I found myself in love with food again. LOVE.

I'm sad when I finish my last bite. That hasn't changed.

My last bite has changed and I'm okay!

I'm more than okay - I'm GOLD. :)

Day 9: Blah

Just when I think I've got a handle on this meal stuff - I'm reminded that I'm a girl and that once a month I feel the need to consume EVERY.THING.

The End

hahaha - pretty much.

I haven't been feeling the best today - but I've kept on my meal plan and kept up on my water.

I checked my fitbit thingy and I'm definitely lacking on my steps.

That should make me feel bad - but I feel empowered.

9 days ago - I didn't even care about my steps.

9 days ago - I didn't enjoy chopped salad for lunch. (I honestly do now)

9 days ago - I WOULD have consumed EVERY.THING.

But, today - I didn't. :)

Did I clean my bathroom? Shower? Pack for my trip on Thursday? Make my protein shake for tomorrow? Wax my face? Wear a real bra today?

I DIDN'T CONSUME EVERY.THING.

*sheesh* 

Weird moment of the day - swooping up my nephew from a play date and making a new friend: Koa.

And NO - I did NOT feel the need to consume him...just the need to take selfies. :)

Day 8: Rainy Days & Mondays...

I despise you Monday.

Even when I pack my meals on Sunday night - throw in laundry before I fall asleep - wake up in the MIDDLE of the night to switch it to the dryer - you always seem to make me out to be a fool.

I woke up late.

My laundry didn't dry.

I come up with a "Makeshift Monday" outfit (because white leggings alone are inappropriate for ANYONE wearing dark peach colored underwear...or maybe just in general) - make 15 million trips upstairs because I can't remember CRAP.

Finally - make it outside and meet rain.

Rain - that fuses with my hair to create a phenomena women in Utah rat their hair for hours for: BIG HAIR.

Rain - that stings my face and makes me repent for the curse words I'm thinking outloud.

I'm a grumbling mess and I want to punch all the drivers on the road in the throat.

Healthy living = Happy living? NOT. TUH-DAY.

I check my stupid fitbit thingy to see what stupid time it is because this day is stupid and rain is stupid and stupidstupidstupidstupid.

6:00 am? Fine. I'll drink my stupid protein shake and eat my stupid turkey bac...*nomnomnom*

*Brown Sugar transforming into a beautiful princess*

Well - maybe not a beautiful princess - but definitely a nicer version of Brown Sugar!!!

I've always been a crazy monster when I don't get food, but I know that before - turkey bacon would NOT have cut it.

It's only day 8 - but even in the rain - in an ugly outfit - late to work - my protein shake and turkey bacon have stomped out my hunger and given me happiness. Happiness that I thought only chocolate, peanut butter, and more chocolate could give me.

*sigh*

I'll make it through today...even if my bearded boyfriends didn't make an appearance. :(

I guess beautiful, bearded, manliness considers "safety first" when operating power saws in the rain.

*emotionally eating more turkey bacon* hahaha - I promise I'm still on plan!!!

DAY 7: RESULTS WEEK 1

I was meaning to post this last night right before I...fell asleep. 

So I'm COUNTING IT!!! :)

*drum roll*

Weight Lost: 6.1 lbs

 Arm inches: gained...weird? Probably normal for building guns?

Leg inches: lost!!! well - not HEIGHT (thank goodness) - WIDTH 

Bust, Waist, Hips inches: LOST!!!

I'll have concrete numbers next week. But, can you freaking believe it?!

Eating healthy AND exercising = WEIGHT LOSS?!?!

*cheers to you with my blender bottle of water*

Day 6 = Bootlegs are for Lovers

When your co-worker says she "owns Rio 2" and would love to give you a digital copy - you jump at the chance. These are the decisions that give you the coveted titles of

#1 AUNTIE

BEST AUNTY EVER

LADY THAT SLEEPS IN THE BASEMENT

Those are just a few titles I have earned.

The kids pop popcorn - dress in their jammies - and begin the movie. They wait patiently as the movie buffers...and buffers...and loads *phew*. They comment how it's a bit strange that it looks like it's shaking *I don't see it*. They politely question why all the titles and words are in Portuguese *Maybe our language settings are off*. Suddenly, a person walks in front of the camera.

And I'm faced with explaining what a bootleg movie is and why I brought one home for the children to watch.

#1 Auntie?

Best Aunty Ever?

LADY THAT SLEEPS IN THE BASEMENT

Bootlegs ARE pretty ghetto. I usually judge people that have them...ha! Yet, today - my workout was SAVED by a bootleg on YouTube. :)

I'm visiting my Ohana in Logan and you'd be proud:

• Packed my meals for the weekend (with a few missing items...that could be easily replaced with EXTRA items I had - MEAL PLAN MIRACLE)
• Packed workout clothes

I got my 8 hours of sleep - changed into my clothes - found the yoga mat (that's been missing for FOREVER = MEAL PLAN MIRACLE) - searched on YouTube for the exact video that I needed - found it in all its 'handheld recording of a TV with the exact Piyo video that I needed' glory - and ROCKED MY WORKOUT!!!

Shaky and possibly in Portuguese - I was thankful I didn't make excuses to miss this workout. 

It kept me on plan today - made me feel awesome (and sore) - and renewed my appreciation for things illegal. MEAL PLAN MIRACLE!!! ;)

Day 5: Bad Dreams...?

I woke up last night with the most horribly BAD dream.

I just remember being at a fancy dinner with my family and friends - when suddenly - the place is taken over by these people dressed in black. Not fancy black - more like old school robbers: black shoes, black pants, black fitted shirts, black stocking caps, black masks, and black gloves. Like I said, dressed in black.

It's out of the ordinary - but not too alarming.

Each of the robbers stand next to a person at the dinner - and at the nod/signal of the first robber that entered - they turn and stab us to death. :(

I was so distraught - I had to make myself wake up. I was sad and confused and I didn't like that trade off. I'd much rather PEE for 40 seconds then get KILLED with ALL of my friends in my dreams.

*soft crying break*

Is this what healthy living is?! Living a life without all its delicious, fatty foods = crying about it at night?!

I would NOT be comforted.

UNTIL - I used my handy dream interpretation app.

Blasphemy you say?!

How about fun and educational? Interesting and insightful?

I searched "Killing" in the vast archives of dream interpery (my new word) and this is what I discovered:

HOLY CRAP - I'm trying to get rid of my family, friends, and fancy dinners!!! hahaha

I know dream interpery isn't a place where I should place all of my life decisions - but it gave me comfort today.

I AM trying to kill off my old characteristics/parts/bad habits within myself.

Did I want my mind to scare the hell out of me? NO.

But, I'll be honest - I AM scared. 

Scared to fail, scared to succeed - scared to be a different me.

That fear is one of the old characteristics/parts/bad habits within myself that I need to get rid of.

And on Day 5 - that bad dream is finally helping me wake up.

Day 4: Creeper Confessions

This morning I woke up with a migraine :(

I drugged myself up - slept the allotted time til its demise - worked my first part of the day from home and arrived at work later.

The Boys (Bracken, Brandon, Kody, and Jonny are my team/Ohana at work that will be referenced as "The Boys" from here on out) said that their "doctor told their wife's sister" that when you change up your meal plan - it throws your body for a loop - so then your body reacts in different ways: migraines.

I, again, attributed it to the Fat gods - laughing maniacally as they hoisted lightning bolts into my brain.

FOILED AGAIN FAT GODS!!!

Arriving at work isn't necessarily a bad thing - but in this FOUR DAY LIFE CHANGE - I've found a simple pleasure. That may oust me out as a creeper.

In the past attempts of healthy eating - I'd get my meal ready - walk it back to my desk and eat. My imaginary audience made me feel silly for eating healthy foods in front of people that I don't want to know or think that I'm eating healthy. IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!! hahaha

It just dawned on me - that I can take my laptop - AWAY - from my desk, prepare my food in the break room, and work WHILE I eat - at the sky bridge.

SKY BRIDGE you ask? It's this magical place between another building and our break room with windows to the outside world. I TELL NO LIES!!!

It's heaven.

AAAND at 9:00 am sharp - I grab Meal 2 and set up shop by a window - overlooking the alley/walkway in between our buildings. Not the BEST view - but a view nonetheless.

Did I mention - that in the alley/walkway in between our buildings - at 9:00 am - I've noticed something?

I guess there's a rock climbing facility that shares our same building. Oh...cool.

Said rock climbing facility has employees. Naturally.

Said employees are beautifully, bearded men....that come outside at 9:00 am....anddobeautifullymanlythingslikepowerwashequipmentandcutthingsupwithpowersaws!!!

I'm so excited that I had to write it all together because that's how fast I'm talking!!!

Translation: "and do beautifully, manly things like power wash equipment and cut things up with power saws."

I'm going to PRAISE JESUS right here - although, I'm pretty sure he didn't put them there for me...or did he? ;)

I'm sad I had a migraine this morning - ONLY because it took me away from my Sky bridge aka beautiful, bearded men.

It's a simple pleasure....that helps me look forward to walking to eat Meal 2 - which is very healthy for me - every day.

What's better - is that my fitbit thingy looks like a house arrest bracelet. SO - as I slave away at work, nibble at my meager portions, and stare out the window - I can truly look like a creeper.

Day 3 - Not hating life...yet ;)

You know what I DO hate? 

Waking up - in the middle of the night - to use the bathroom. It probably sounds lame to complain about - but really? I'm supposed to drink 5 million ounces of water a day - take bathroom breaks every 10 minutes - and my body thinks it's hilarious to ruin my dreams and slumber - by making me use the bathroom. 

I'm in an intense kung fu battle with a rogue unicorn and wait - why are the clouds blinking? Why am I wandering around a foreign city now? Looking for a bar? No. Looking for a brothel? No. I know it starts with a 'B'....BBQ?

BATHROOM!!!

And you know how it is - you're so full that it hurts to even move, but ya gotta.

This morning (2:01 am) - I dragged myself out of bed and did something I've never done before - I timed myself.

Why?

Because - I swear to you - that with the new amount of water I'm drinking on a daily basis - I am peeing for at least 12 minutes. Per. Toilet. Use. 

Gross? Maybe - but it's what I'm blogging about today. Gross honesty.

Can you guess what my time was? 

40 SECONDS!!! FORTY SECONDS!!! FOUR. TEE. SEC. UNDS!!!

It's probably not a record - but with a steady stream - I'm hoping something good is happening to my body.

I'm hoping the water weight I lose this week is 40 POUNDS!!! Or 3....I'll take 3.

And I know that my body will adjust to my changes - so when it does - that rogue unicorn is gonna get it!!!

Day 2 aaaand I'm still fat.

HA! I know "it took time to gain weight - it'll take time to lose weight".

I'm pretty sure that I can gain 12 pounds instantly. INSTANTLY.

Like pudding...I'm like chocolate pudding.

AND with that realization - I quit!

:)

Nah - I won't quit. But, you know what did? My fitbit thingy. It's the Amazon version of a fitbit and it's cool, but it didn't record my sleep patterns, my steps this morning, and the clock was off. LUCKILY, Google exists and so does deleting and re-installing apps - so life is back on track again.

It really does make a difference. I like sliding the bar on my app to count the ounces of water I'm drinking. I like the little buzz my bracelet gives me to remind me to be active...which sometimes is standing up and marching in place...ha! I even get up to go to the bathroom because I know it'll add to my steps...I'm honest.

The Piyo beginning video was good. They have a "modifier" that does the exercises easier so that people who aren't in awesome shape can do them. I'm at a point - where I have to modify - the modified, but I tried my hardest. And you know what? My foot didn't hurt this morning :)

Although, I was super tired last night. I still feel like I'm running around - chopping food - and packing it. I think that it'll get easier as I go - and I'll try to learn time saving tricks. So far - I haven't mastered any of that.

I DID master my lunch though!!! I showed no mercy to the Trader Joe's Cowboy Black Bean Corn Quinoa veggie burger on a slice of whole grain bread with Laughing Cow cheese wedge spread!!! With every savory bite - I stared down that burger and told it who I was:

I. AM. CHOCOLATE. PUDDING!!!

Which - strange enough - I don't feel like eating :)

2015 is for Suckers...

Guess what!

I made a resolution to lose weight this year!!!

Whoa, whoa, whoa - just hear me out.

Am I any different than anyone else trying to lose weight right now?

No...but I'm cooler. ;)

The crazy things about this announcement are:
>>I never tell ANYONE that I'm trying to lose weight
>>I never write in my blog (last post was April 2014? hahaha - don't hate)

Why now? Why become the fitness blogger that I don't even read?

Because that's exactly what I'm NOT. I'm Brown Sugar. :)

For the 3 people who read my blog - this is for Ardis. She wants me to check in with my progress and to also write in my blog again. She also introduced me to Piyo and is super excited for me to try it out.

And for once, in a very long while, I'm excited too.

I'll elaborate more in the blogs to come - but I've had a huge mental block and a completely bad attitude when it comes to losing weight.

I present to you:

>>DAY ONE<<

I went to bed at 9:00 pm to sleep for 8 hours before work. 

I didn't.

I was so worried that I wouldn't wake up in time - I'd wake up. I was so worried I overslept - I'd wake up. I'd get BORED of sleeping - and wake up.

I'm sure I'll get used to it...right? I mean - I LOVE sleeping - I just haven't tried it for 8 hours in a row  (on purpose) for quite awhile.

When I did wake up - my right ankle hurt (remember my last blog?) and I thought out loud,

Sorry 'bout it Brown Sugar. The Fat gods say you must stay the same.

Not THIS time Fat gods! 

I  know it's going to hurt so much, but I'm ready to push through the pain. I know that I'll be sad without LOTS of sugar - in all of its forms. But, I'm willing to eat chop salad at lunch (and it was DELICIOUS).

I know - that I can do this. TODAY I want to do this!

Did I walk downstairs to fill up my water bottle with the boys? I DID.

Did I take the elevator back up? I DID!

Baby steps, y'all. Literally - baby steps.